can i just be moribund?

aight. nothing of much relevance lately. oklah. nothing much of relevance that i'm willing to divulge in full, anyway. furthermore, i'm too embarassed to actually elucidate from the previous post. hahaah. come on, i read my own post all over and i got quite sheepish.

i got quite freaked out yesterday (or should it be the day before yesterday?). lost in my own thoughts and very imagined fears. i acknowledge that i AM often lost and confused. but this time round, i suddenly felt the irrational fear of not being able to believe in myself at all. it was almost as if nothing about me is real. i was just so so so damn scared. i couldnt really explain myself. i was just afraid that i was a right ol' fraud...